im a munkey

Off to a new world...

2006-02-17T17:18:00.000-05:00

The time has come to say goodbye to this blog, it's been fun but I'm moving on!!

Lucky for all of you I'm just talking about a new journal.

Here is where you'll find me...

The sweetest of whispers....

2005-12-17T12:41:00.000-05:00

Ok...I know this has died off. I'm starting work on a new blog..so be on the look out for things to come!

I'll be back......

2005-10-04T07:42:00.000-04:00

Stolen from Tara, a little scary how true this is:

Munkey took the free ColorQuiz.com personality test!

"Seeks affectionate, satisfying and harmonious rela..."

Click here to read the rest of the results.

2005-08-22T21:51:00.000-04:00

Update on my dad:

He didn't have the Angioplasty today because of a gentic condition with his heart, something about his artery being shaped oddly. He will be having open heart surgery tomorrow which will include 3 bypasses. *sigh* Sometime soon i'll have to also go to a cardiologist to get checked out.....

Tomorrow is going to be a very long day...

2005-08-21T23:04:00.000-04:00

I dont know what to write because I truly dont know how I feel. I mean, there are all sorts of fears and emtions swirling inside me but I cant really seem to make any sense of them.

My dad goes into the hospital tomorrow to have Angioplasty. If it doesn't go well, bypass surgery is next.

What do you do when all you can think about is that? How are you supposed to feel?

How do you stay calm when your first and only instinct is to freak out?

tomorrow is going to be a long day....

2005-08-07T22:19:00.000-04:00

I think i'm having heart attacks. 2 so far to be exact.

This is probably not a good thing...

2005-07-20T22:18:00.000-04:00

i got my 4 wisdom teeth pulled today.

ow.

2005-07-16T10:06:00.000-04:00

Yay for Harry Potter 6!!! I'm so excited to read it, i'm such a dork! haha.

i'm going to stall trying to read it because i'll finish it so quickly. I dont want to go through the whole waiting game again for book 7 so soon. Though, i realize i'm full of it because it's inevitable maybe if I hadn't already gone out and bought it I'd have more of a chance. Maybe i'll re-read book 5 to jump back into the story, problem is I think it's still in a box somewhere.

haha maybe...

london

2005-07-07T20:22:00.000-04:00

thoughts and prayers to London and to the entire nation of England.

we got your back.

2005-06-03T22:25:00.000-04:00

Steve found this site Shacknews with this on it, HILARIOUS!!

ANTI GAY PHONE COMPANY

Simply amazing.

"Starting in late December I began to get phone calls from what I thought was a phone company (United American Technologies) trying to get me to switch from my phone company to a Christian one that didn’t support gay marriage and pornography. It was so weird and creepy that I decided to record them. There are three calls. It turns out that they are from a non-profit that works with United American Technologies and calls people on their behalf. UAT then donates money to them. I think this non-profit stopped making these calls, but UAT still has many other organizations making the calls for them I believe. Though they claimed to donate 10% of their profits to ministries I think the money actually went into an Oklahoma Republican political campaign, but some of it may go to Churches and ministries, I’m not sure. The whole thing is confusing and spooky."

Gay Phone Company 1
Gay Phone Company 2
Gay Phone Company 3

2005-06-01T07:16:00.000-04:00

Today is my birthday!!

What a great year! I moved back to northern virginia, left BAM and found a great new job and career, Steven moved in, and we moved into a beautiful townhouse in Reston. Now, I just need to find the time in my life to talk to everyone I've missed in the last year and catch up with all of them. I also need to talk one little person into just moving up here!

Thank you guys for being patient with me!!! I promise I will make the phone calls soon and even try to plan a visit down to Blacksburg!!! Anyone got a couch for me? *eG*

Today starts the slide of birthdays for june!! Me first, Steve next and close behind are Bethy and Jacob! Enjoy those 18 days Bethy, lol, than you're old JUST like me!!

Ok, Off to work I go...I miss that about BAM, I was allowed to take my bday off; now I gotta spend pretty much the entire day at work! boo, that definitely should not be allowed! Ah well, I have dinner with Steve to look forward to.

2005-05-25T06:20:00.000-04:00

Your dating personality profile:

Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.
Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life.
Practical - You are a down-to-earth individual who is not impressed with material excess. You care about the stuff of like that really matters.

Your date match profile:

Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.
Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.
Romantic - You need someone with a traditional understanding of romance. A true romantic is a must-have in any potential date.

Your Top Ten Traits

1. Big-Hearted
2. Adventurous
3. Practical
4. Romantic
5. Liberal
6. Shy
7. Sensual
8. Athletic
9. Wealthy/Ambitious
10. Intellectual

Your Top Ten Match Traits

1. Big-Hearted
2. Practical
3. Romantic
4. Shy
5. Adventurous
6. Sensual
7. Athletic
8. Wealthy/Ambitious
9. Conservative
10. Traditional

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2005-05-12T07:00:00.000-04:00

ugh poor neglected blog! anybody out there still??

I swear i need to take a day off just to catch up with everyone...i feel so bad that i havent gotten a chance to talk to so many of you. pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee know that i'm thinking of you guys and I promise I will take some time (hopefully this weekend?) and catch up with all of you. I miss you guys like crazy, things are definitely not the same without you.

hope all of you are doing well!!!! <3

2005-03-20T23:36:00.000-05:00

wow...you think it's time i post?? its been over a month..and i dont know..not like a lot has happened...

steve moved in
left BAM
have new job
trip to philly soon
concert
....

naw..nothing really has happened....why do i need to update??

what do you think?

2005-01-07T23:35:00.000-05:00

ugh

so tired, i haven't slept more than 3 hours a night for this last week. of course thats if im lucky. most of the time its just tossing and turning till the alarm goes off.

one night..that's all i want...8 hours of sleep.

PUHLEASEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!

2005-01-01T23:43:00.000-05:00

Hope everyone started 2005 off with a bang!

2004-12-25T01:18:00.000-05:00

Merry Christmas!
I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday weekend!

2004-12-22T01:56:00.000-05:00

WOOHOO!!

the only exciting and good thing to come out of work today...date has been announced with Harry Potter and the Half-Blood Prince comes out. Yes..you heard me...July 16, 2005 is the date for Harry Potter #6!!!

I put an order in for mine already, though im not sure why I do that since I have every chance to put a copy aside for me but whatever! you can now pre-order book 6!

*does a lil dance*

cant wait!

2004-12-13T19:54:00.000-05:00

katie emailed this to me and thought i'd post it on here for all to see and do if you wish. I would forward but I dont know everyones email address!

Effective January 1, 2005, all cell phone numbers will be made public to telemarketing firms. Consequently, you may begin to receive lots of calls, that unlike your home phone, will eat up your minutes.

According to the National Do Not Call Registry (DNC), you have until December 15, 2004 to register your cell phone one of two ways.

You may call 1-888-382-1222 from the cell phone that you wish to have put on the do not call list.Or, you may register your cell phone number online at: DO NOT CALL

2004-11-25T01:41:00.000-05:00

I hope everyone has a happy happy Thanksgiving!!

is it strange to take comfort in this?

2004-11-18T20:49:00.000-05:00

Here is your horoscope for Thursday, November 18:

In between sighs, you'll realize that you've made some very serious plans -- some very positive plans. Don't worry about things working out badly. You're packing just the right combination of fantasy and reality to make it all work out perfectly.

wow...this a really cool one..kinda fits with whats going on in my life right now and all the plans that im making.

is it strange to take comfort in this?

2004-11-16T01:05:00.000-05:00

ahh, gotta love useless quizzes!

You are sex on the beach

What kind of sex are you?
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2004-11-14T20:13:00.000-05:00

Here is your horoscope for Sunday, November 14:

Just because you're in the mood to let a certain person slide for an unintentional offense doesn't mean you're a sucker. Make that point clear early on. Just so there's no mistake.

hmm..interesting..gotta think this one over a bit.

2004-11-03T13:26:00.000-05:00

all I gotta say is:

now its time to some how bridge this divide..and I think Kerry took that first step today with him conceeding. I have a greater respect for him now and I think both candidates ended a very heated campaign with a lot of class.

where do we go from here?

2004-11-02T13:32:00.000-05:00

Today is going to be CRAZY!! Im happy I'll be at work till 10, coming home just in time to hear some newsworthy results. It's going to be a long night, I can't wait!!! I'm sure Steven will be updating me as the evening progresses. Have I mention how I can't wait?! I have complete faith on the results, no worries. muhahahhaha!

2004-10-31T10:29:00.000-05:00

I hope everyone has a happy Samhain.

2004-10-21T01:32:00.000-04:00

Which File Extension are You?

2004-09-26T21:48:00.000-04:00

la la la

went down to fred today, saw the family. *sighs* dinners are annoying when my father wont speak to me still. god is he immature. it takes a lot of patience to sit through dinner, i should get wings JUST for that. my mom constantly kicks me under the table to hold my tongue and not say anything but man...one of these days. grr

mom stocked me up on all sorts of yummy goodies she makes and tons of fresh veggies and what not. its like going to the grocery store for free! yay! its nice to see her on a regular basis, i missed her. she seems a lot happier when all of us can come down there on sundays for dinner, even if some arent talking to others.

puppy was cute as always..their cat was evil of course. i swear i have never seen a cat be so mean..the only person that she's sweet to is my father and its amazing to watch her just melt when he's around. heh..she'll be in a fit all weekend when zona goes down to stay with them while im gone to birmingham. her and zona dont get along at ALL.

steve comes up tuesday! woohoo!! feels like forever since i saw him last. it will be nice to see him and get some time with him. this time around we already have some plans on what we want to do, so we wont sit around restless in the apt all week. we're going down to fred on friday to drop zona off and than getting some wings at BW3's because thats the closest one in the area. we both miss our tuesday night wings and poker. hmm that reminds me, i should try to get in touch with sarah and james too. on saturday we're hoping to spend the day in dc. i have to go to an information session at the library of congress for the national book festival because i signed up to volunteer. since i have to be there we thought of making a day around it, being tourists and visiting some of the great museums around. hopefully the weather will be nice and cooperate with us.

sunday i leave for birmingham and this years BAM seminar. should be interesting i guess, not really looking forward to it but i dont really have a say in it.

work is still work...not much to say about that. i really do want to find something else, something that i will look forward to doing every day. i have some things in mind but gotta wait them out for a bit and get some further information. getting ready to sign up for classes and have to figure out how to transfer everything to gmu for the spring.

my apt actually looks decent now...its shocking. that makes a difference believe it or not..so im happy that i got motivated and finally got it together. its not all perfect but i want to wait for some things when steve moves out here, that way it will be "our" apt and not just mine.

hmm i think thats it for now...maybe this will motivate others :::cough::: to update thier journals as well.

miss all of you!! we need to plan visits!!!

2004-09-16T23:50:00.000-04:00

i have been feeling like this all day

2004-09-16T20:54:00.000-04:00

as much as i hate work, i'm starting to hate my days off more.

blah.

2004-09-13T22:40:00.000-04:00

I was talking to Amanda telling her i'd love to see more pics of her lil amelia and happily enough a day later she hooked me up with some new pics!!

how cute is she??

amanda, lucas: she is way too cute for words!!

2004-09-12T15:59:00.000-04:00

heh..creepy how right on this is...

Here is your horoscope for Sunday, September 12:

Clean, putter and cook yourself a healthy meal. If you really have to go out, pick up provisions, a video and the person with whom you most want to share a game of Scrabble.

putter! scrabble! ahhh!

2004-09-09T14:24:00.000-04:00

ok ok, so a real post.

things up here are..i dont know..confusing, stressful...and lonely. steve was up here for a week and things were good, we're getting used to being in the same place for so long together which will be great for when he moves in. when he left it was nice to have some privacy back because im so used to living alone now, but everything now is so quiet...so..lonely. i miss him a lot..i hate not having him up here and it sucks, and i was worried that i was getting too dependent on him being here to make me happy. Though..after thinking about it I realized thats not the problem, its the fact that I still dont know anyone up here, I dont have a group of friends that I can hang out with. Im so busy at work and when i come home i just crash, where do i have time to meet people?? I was suppose to be taking classes this semester but had to push it off cause I didnt have the funds, and im hoping to take at least a class or two in october, something..anything to get out there and meet people.

im frustrated with my family that always makes demands on me when they want me to do something or be something im not, but dont lift a finger to help me out in anything. my mom yells at me for not going down there to visit but they dont come and see me..they didnt in blacksburg so why would they here in fairfax? not to mention my father still hasnt spoken to me..and what its been 3 months now? i dont know what they want from me.....

its odd, ive gotten to a point in my life that i just want more. things are changing and what i want is changing. i want to be done with school, im so frustrated with myself that im not done yet that i could scream but thats a personal issue i guess, i want to have a job that i love doing.look forward to going to every day and even if i didnt make a lot of money it would satisfy me to no end. I want to move forward, start thinking about getting a house, buying a new car, putting money away, generally getting my shit straight so one day I can have a family.....

*sighs* family, marriage....a whole other issue that i just dont want to think about because it brings on so many fears..so many worries. bleh...

im not even going to get into work...how frustrating it is. im hoping with me hiring new people soon that will get better and one worry will be taken care of. we'll see..my luck these days...im not holding on to any hope....

decided to get back into writing...i need an outlet...along with working out...maybe if i feel better about how i look it will bleed into how i feel. who knows.

so there..my update..not very happy sorry...going through one of those down phases i suppose...trying to break through it but its hard....i feel like im going through all this all alone and blah im not that strong.

i'll work on updating this more...i might move blogs but ill let you know.

2004-09-07T14:41:00.000-04:00

buhahahahaha!!

look...i posted!!

muhahahaha...

:::runs off:::

2004-08-10T23:46:00.000-04:00

im off to georgia for a couple days. be back friday.

*waves* hi all!

2004-07-19T20:49:00.000-04:00

im alive....still....i swear!

2004-06-23T02:55:00.000-04:00

OMG I HAVE TO LEAVE IN TWO DAYS!!!

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!

2004-06-19T11:12:00.000-04:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY BETHY!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY JACOB!!

May you both have a wonderful day filled with tons of fun and tons of love. I wish I could be with you both to celebrate!

2004-06-19T02:27:00.000-04:00

i just got woken up by kirk and bob banging on my window at 1:45 to come outside and chat with them a bit. i dont think kirk realizes how scary it is for a girl to be woken up to BANGING on her window in the middle of the night...oh well..it was nice to get out and talk for a bit.

this whole transfer and moving situation is stressing me out big time. its so HARD to find a place to live when you're not in the area and having to figure out whats a nice place to live, how much you can afford, and what will be the easiest time to do it. of course having the district managers ignore all your personal needs to suit them is frustrating as hell. i dont exactly know how they thought i could find a place in four days, pack my apt up down here and move in to a new apt all before the 20th of june. the first apt i liked isnt even available till the 18th of july. they keep hearing what i have to say but ignore it and than play dumb afterwards..like how i told them i couldnt stay at my parents in between moving into an apt and than coming back to talk to them and them seeming shocked and surprised when i told them again that i COULDNT do that...because they thought thats what i was doing..staying with my parents. AHHHHH!! all in all im frustrated and tired of dealing with it. ive had nothing but headaches since this all started and doing it all alone has made me miserable and lonely in the process. steve is going to move in with me but thats not for several more months so..not having him around to help has sucked even more. i know he feels useless seeing me so upset but there isnt much he can do. when he moves up it will be easier to find a place to live together and it will be cheaper too. the rate of living in northern virginia is insane!!!! the $600 i pay for my 2br apt down here couldnt get me a 1br shanty in the worst part of town up there. damn its frustrating. BLAH!

oh well..

i know this might shock some people who know my past but i messaged meri today. i had read her journal the other day out of the blue and read a post that brought some things to mind. i know she'll try to figure out why i did and think something different about it, which is completely understandable, but it was really an innocent message. she seemed so sad and down in what i read that i just wanted to..i dont know. im honestly not sure what i wanted to say...it just something i did. we've all grown up so much and thinking back there is much i would have done differently and *sighs* i guess it seems silly to want to try to right a wrong that probably should just be left alone. now i feel bad at the thought of the message upsetting her....it wasnt intended that way. we didnt speak, i wasnt expecting to...but bleh i dont know. *sighs*

so yeah..i guess thats all thats going on right now. i'll be moving soon...i'll let everyone know specifically when as soon as i find that out. i'll miss blacksburg..i really enjoy it down here but i need to move on, cant stay here forever. sorry if i havent gotten a chance to talk to everyone lately, as you can see things are hectic. i have just a lil less than 2 weeks to get things worked out before steve and i go on vacation for a week. i cant wait for that...its the one thing i keep looking forward to..10 days in wilmington with him. yay. moving closer to him will be nice too..no more 5 hour drives..he'll be a 2 hours away till he moves in! i cant wait to start that next step with him.....

so! all of you guys in the burg that want to hang out before i leave make sure you get in touch with me somehow so i dont leave without saying goodbye. i'll be back down of course to visit but i wont know when!! you got at least a week left with me!!!

i'll definitely miss you all...

2004-06-11T21:04:00.000-04:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY STEVE!!!

hope you had a wonderful bday hun, im sorry the weather was so crappy! we'll just make it a bday weekend! im so glad i got to share the day with you, i hope there will be many more birthdays to come.

i love you.

2004-06-07T18:12:00.000-04:00

stolen from tara's blog:

I am Chocolate Flavoured.

I am sweet and a little bit naughty. I am one of the few clinically proven aphrodisiacs. Sometimes I can seem a little hard, but show warmth and I soon melt.

What Flavour Are You?

2004-06-01T11:42:00.000-04:00

Happy Birthday

to me!!

wow..i cant believe im 25!!!

out of town for the weekend..signed on at steve's to post this..will be back either tomorrow or next day.

thx to those who called and left me a message on my cell!!

love ya!

2004-05-29T03:05:00.000-04:00

ok..here are two more since Steve told me i should post more!

This is on the side of the road driving down to Amalfi. We had stopped to look at the view and to cut some fig branches for my mom to take home. If you look at the picture of the layred levels in the mountains, those are for all the lemon trees. Almost the entire coast is filled with them and they are famous for their lemons, especially Cetara.

this one is for you steve

This is one of the small lil local ports in Amalfi. Along with personal boats, a bunch of fishing boats, a coast guard boat, and even a police boat are docked there. The entire time we sat there and looked at them i thought how much you would love to be there with them hun, well most likely you would have been out on the water!

hope y'all enjoy these.

2004-05-29T01:08:00.000-04:00

got some pics today...6 rolls. i cant believe i took so many pics in italy. a bunch of them were pics of steve and i too..yay. some of them are really cute.

i dont want to bombard you with pictures so here are a couple:

This is a picture of the view from one of the areas at the famous Villa Ruffolo in Ravello off the Amalfi coast.

This is a view from the parking lot right outside the entrance to Villa Ruffolo. The town on the coast that you see is of Maiori.

This is the gorgeous town of Amalfi and what the Costiera Amalfitana is named after. We spent the day walking around visiting shops, having dinner and seeing the Duomo of Amalfi. It's such a gorgeous town with its history. The wall and tower you see was there to protect the city from attacks by sea back in the day. Its nice to see it still standing and part of modern day times. I love watching all the boats in the water, especially if you're around to see the fisherman come home. Im so lucky to come from such a beautiful place.

and this one is not about italy. hehe..what do you think?

i say we make a cute couple.

aww...he's so cute..i cant wait to see him sunday! we're spending my bday together and he's going to take me sailing. woohoo!

so what do you guys think of the pics? i have tons more i just dont want to bore you all...if you want to see more i can put some up or you'll just have to come over and see them. :P

there..take that.

2004-05-23T19:33:00.000-04:00

stole this from tara. my head started to hurt on the last few ones so i guessed hehe..so...who knows what my possible score COULD be.

Your IQ score is 127

This number is based on a scientific formula that compares how many questions you answered correctly on the Classic IQ Test relative to others.

Your Intellectual Type is Word Warrior. This means you have exceptional verbal skills. You can easily make sense of complex issues and take an unusually creative approach to solving problems. Your strengths also make you a visionary. Even without trying you're able to come up with lots of new and creative ideas.

2004-05-21T15:45:00.000-04:00

im back!!!

i had a great time and when i get the chance ill share my trip and some pictures as soon as i get them done. its nice to be back but god do i miss it over there. i miss my family a lot more than i realized and being with them for only a week was extremely short. if i could just bring a few things from here back there i would be positively in bliss living there.

i wish i could share exactly how it is there with all of you..but words never seem to do it justice. *sighs*

on other notes...feeling more than worried these days..sometimes i feel like im going to have an anxiety attack. something feels wrong and its scaring the hell out of me....blah.

2004-05-08T12:12:00.000-04:00

today is going to be a horrible day.

*sighs*

2004-05-01T20:54:00.000-04:00

update:

as of 10am this morning i will be going to italy on the may 12, will be back in the states may 20.

wow..im excited.

2004-04-30T18:10:00.000-04:00

i might be going to italy...

how terribly exciting and sad...

it will be great to go..to see everyone..especially my lil cousin that i have yet to meet. but..to go for fear that my grandmother will pass away soon is heart wrenching. i hate the thought that this might be the last time i ever see her....she's the only one any of us have really gotten a chance to know so..losing her is going to be so hard.

*sighs*

i should think postively...she's a fighter...she's strong...

i'll keep you updated....i'll find out tonight i believe if its a definite go.

2004-04-23T02:26:00.000-04:00

im going to a picnic later today! yay! im really looking forward to it, both my bf and I have been so stressed out lately that taking some time away to just relax and have fun will be good for us. ill let you know how it goes.

i talked to my parents tonight and can i tell you how crazy they have become?? i swear they must be going senile or something. i called them pretty late around 12:30 or so because my younger brother had informed me that my father had sliced his finger at work and had to go to the hospital and get 7 stitches. i called to make sure he was ok and to yell at him for being stupid..seems he was trying to open a bottle of oil or something. so we chatted for a few and he was fine. my mom had me on speaker phone so she proceeded to tell me how they are getting this catholic priest (who they have become close friends with) to come on May 4th and bless the restaurant. haha!! my parents have wigged out..i couldnt stop laughing. my mom didnt understand what was so funny, she kept telling me how its done all the time especially in italy..that even when you buy a new car you'd have it done. my lil brother than got back online after hearing them tell me this and this was our conversation:

sandro: mom and dad have lost their mind
sandro: ahahhaa
me: LOL
me: thats what im thinking
sandro: there crazy
sandro: seriously
me: its old age man
sandro: we should get the priest do work magic on them
me: they're becoming senile
me: LOL

all the while im still speaking to my parents and cracking up. my father kept trying to explain to me how it was going to be similar to an exorcist...*sighs* hahaha my parents are crazy..ya gotta love them. i'll keep you updated on their wacky plans.

as far as that..things are ok...have some shit going on that im trying to muddle through. dont really want to get into it on here. my mom asked me if i wanted to go to italy with her..so im trying to work on that...along with planning my trip out to colorado.

later tonight im going out with carly and tara...rachel might be joining us...haha im sure we'll have a good time. hopefully ill post about it and not be locked up in jail somewhere in roanoke...goddess only knows what kind of trouble we could get into.

till then....

2004-04-16T22:20:00.000-04:00

lesson of the day

situation: cleaned top of stove. took burners out to clean. replaced them back into their slots. turn burners on to make sure all were correctly placed and fuctioning.

problem: noticed big burner was not coming on.

1st attempt to fix situation: tried to jiggle the burner while it was on to see if it would click into place.

result: sparks go flying out of burner and loud BOOM is heard as power goes out. threw all breakers to apt, inside and out.

2nd attempt to fix situation: paged emergency maintenance at least 5 times to come to apt to throw breaker back on. was bitchy to boyfriend who was only trying to help. was kept company by tara on phone for 30 mins while waiting for maintenance to come fix problem.

ending result: lights are back on. power switch to big burner completely fried (when power came back on burner went POOF again). work order put in to fix rest of stove on monday.

lesson learned:

DO NOT JIGGLE BURNER WHEN BURNER IS ON!!!

2004-04-16T11:15:00.000-04:00

hmm

2004-04-13T22:45:00.000-04:00

i think my head is going to explode

so many things going on..so much effort to make sure others are happy and im losing the battle with myself. a lot of shit is coming up and im not sure how im going to deal with it. i dont know what to do...sometimes my mind is racing so fast with fears and worries but i dont really have anyone to tell them too.

and yes..im sure you're thinking why dont i tell my boyfriend..well to be honest i dont want to bug him. he's going through shit and i dont want to be another thing on his back...*shrugs* i dont know..im trying to stay happy to make sure he's happy..

i gotta be positive...i have to be. i dont have any other choice.

things will work out....
things will work out...

wont they?

2004-04-05T17:47:00.000-04:00

oh..

word of note...

im also very HYPER at this moment...

just thought id warn you all.

thank you.

EEEP!!!

2004-04-05T17:39:00.000-04:00

Take the quiz: "Which American City Are You?"

Las Vegas
You Shine bright and partake in all the vices. You'd rather burn out then fade away.

buhahaha..its fated!!! sweetie..we need to go!!!!

*bounces up and down*

yay..my sweetie is coming back today. THANK GOD. another day without him might have killed me. i swear im going to be a wreck in 3 weeks. *sighs* im honestly not looking forward to it. we're going to sit down soon and talk a bunch of stuff out, i know that will help.

bleh.

i just dont want to be without him...is that so bad??

2004-04-04T04:22:00.000-04:00

i hate drunk fuckwits...i should add that to my pet peeves.

my bf has been gone 2 days and im a wreck..i feel like half of me is missing. i dont even know what to do with myself. what am i going to do in a month when he leaves??

i dont know how im going to handle it....

*sighs*

2004-03-31T22:38:00.000-05:00

pet peeves:

cowards
people who lie to my face
people who think they're so great when they are jack shit
people who think only of themselves but claim otherwise
people who think im too niave to see them for who they really are

im not dumb..dont fuck with me.

2004-03-27T00:49:00.000-05:00

this was interesting:

Brief summary of your name: Anna

Your first name of Anna has given you a quick-minded, sensitive nature. It gives you a clever, creative ability in art, music, singing, or drama and an appreciation for refined surroundings. Your sociable nature expresses affection, kindness, and thoughtfulness to the extent that it is difficult for you not to be affected by others and governed by your emotions, rather than by logic and reason. As you respond to love and encouragement from others, your romantic and dreamy nature can easily lead you into love affairs.

check yours out: what's in your name?

2004-03-26T01:46:00.000-05:00

is it me or is my blog being odd?

hm...

2004-03-23T09:31:00.000-05:00

*sighs* im not sure if you guys want to hear whats going through my head right now.

2004-03-19T12:34:00.000-05:00

have had a bad case of writers block for the last week or two..hence me not posting.

trying to cure it..will post shortly.

..more announcements to come at the top of the hour. *grins*

2004-03-13T15:13:00.000-05:00

let me be the rope that pulls you from drowning,
let me be the air that you breathe, filling your lungs,
let us be the light that fills you on your darkest days.

have faith in us, in what we are and in what we will be.

blessed be hun.

2004-03-12T09:33:00.000-05:00

i love exploding dog, it's so easy to find the picture that goes with exactly how im feeling.

why does everything have to go wrong?

2004-03-09T00:35:00.000-05:00

doobie doobie dooo.

im back in the burg.

doobie doobie dooooo.

this weekend will teach me never to go home...

doobie doobie dooooooo!!!

*bows*

2004-03-04T15:27:00.000-05:00

doobie doobie dooo.

im going home for the weekend!! woohoo!!

doobie doobie dooooo.

2004-02-29T22:21:00.000-05:00

Happy Anniversary

Thank you for an amazing two months. Last night was amazing and i'll never forget it. White wine, soft kisses and a slice of cheesecake for two. I cant wait to see what the future brings for us. I never expected to find you and once i did i never thought i would fall for you but i did. You have made all my dreams come true and make me happier than i have ever known.

There is a way because we have the will.

i love you hun.

2004-02-26T12:46:00.000-05:00

im stupid
im stupid
i hate money
i hate money
im stupid
im stupid

RAAARRRR!!! if this migraine does not cease i SWEAR ill chop my head off. ARGH!!

2004-02-24T22:20:00.000-05:00

aww this is what my wonderful boyfriend got me for valentines. isnt it cute? and he filled all the little drawers with chocolate!!!

and he said he wasnt good with gifts. pftttt does he know me or what? *grins*

2004-02-23T20:54:00.000-05:00

To satisfy all of your curiosities about my wonderful time on valentines:

We woke up early that morning and routinely got ready for the day like we've been accustomed too lately. Its been great, waking up each morning with him there, I cant even begin to explain how happy and lucky I feel, how blissfully happy I am to roll over and see him, curl up into him. *sighs* there are no words. Ok sorry, getting off track. He goes home to drop off his car while I run to the mall and pick up my dress for the show. I wanted it to be a surprise for him so I didn't show him what it looked like. It is so pretty. Mostly black dress with small flowers on one side, very simple. It has spaghetti straps but the neckline was cut at an angle so it sloped from my one shoulder to the other. The bottom of the dress was all flimsy and angled, it's gorgeous! I bought a cute lil purse to go with, a pretty black choker, his favorite earrings and I already had the stilettos. I was dressed to kill. The drive down was nice; I drove the entire way down because we had planned for him to drive that night. We talked, alternated cd's one time his choice, one time mine. It was great. I believe we stopped a couple of times once for lunch where we went to Denny's. It was really cute, I had never been to one before and this one was set as an old 50's diners. Really neat. We were both really excited about the night ahead and moved along quickly we wanted to get to Raleigh and the hotel to rest before dinner. We made good time and got to the hotel around 3, couple hours before dinner, which was nice, gave us a time to rest. I had booked us a room that was part of a Valentines special. When we walked in to the room we found a bottle of champagne with two flutes, a beautiful yellow and orange trimmed rose, a balloon and a gift bag. I had no idea what the gift bag had inside, I knew about the champagne and rose but the other was a mystery. I peeked in the bag and inside was a handful of chocolate hearts, a loofah, a red candle and a little champagne bottle of bubble bath. It was great! Dinner was at 5 so we didn't have too much time to waste, but just enough. *grins*
I can't even begin to tell you how hot my boyfriend looks in a suit. When I finally came out of the bathroom all dressed up and saw him there, it made me speechless. He looked so handsome, it made my stomach drop. Every time I look at him my stomach flutters, sometimes I feel like my heart wants to just fly right out of my body. I wonder if he notices that? Or when he looks at me and gives me the once over, it makes my skin warm. He said I looked beautiful. He made me feel it. *sighs* Sorry, back to story. Finally we were on our way. We went to this place called Cappers Restaurant and Tavern it was gorgeously decorated. The walls inside were covered with art and it had a window on the ceiling that was absolutely gorgeous. We were seated at our table and I was given a rose. My second for the day, it was a red rose. They had a valentines day special going so we got to pick out of four choices for our appetizers, we were given salad, pick one of four choices for the entree and one of four for our dessert. For appetizers we picked the calamari, it was very yummy and I went ahead and ordered a glass of white wine since I wasn't driving. For dinner I had the lobster tail with scallops and shrimp and he had the grouper fish, and of course for dessert I had the tiramisu and he had a GIANT slice of cheesecake. No lie when I say this piece was HUGE, it was at least 4 inches high, and needless to say he couldn't finish it all after that huge dinner. We both enjoyed it; it was a perfect beginning to our night. We left a little before seven and the show started at 8. Now, this is where the fun began. lol.
We leave the restaurant for the convention center and we get lost. Boy o boy was that fun. Both of us instantly got frustrated because both of us HATE being lost. So for a good 20 mins we're snapping at each other and restraining ourselves from hitting the other with something (maybe that was just me that wanted to hit him with the notebook, who knows) We finally get to downtown Raleigh and find the place only to realize neither of us had brought cash with us and every nearby parking place was five dollars to park, and they didn't take plastic. That only got us more irritated. We finally stopped and talked to an attendant and told him our problem and he directed us across the street to this lady and told us to ask her. By than both of us were worried we were going to miss the beginning because it was quarter till 8. We drove over to the lady and retold our story and thankfully she let us park. She told us not to worry about it, BLESS HER! Both of us were so happy I thought we were going to cry, we instantly forgot that we had been snapping at each other for the past 30 mins. We both wanted to get money and make sure if we saw her later to pay her the five dollars plus a HUGE tip. Sadly to say when we came back she was gone. It did restore our faith on the kindness of strangers though. After parking we quickly made our way to the auditorium. We barely even glanced around because they were already calling for people to take their seats. When going through the lobby my boyfriend noticed a program and his eyes lit up, of course we had no cash. *sighs* I looked around and found an ATM and quickly got some money out and bought him one, by than he was grabbing my hand and pulling me up a flight of stairs to get to our seats on time. My boyfriend was so excited he was bouncing in his chair. When the drums to the first song started I thought he was going to burst from happiness, it was wonderful to see. I felt great knowing that I gave him that, even if it was for just one night. Les Mis was AMAZING. The music was so moving and the story had such passion to it. I fell in love with it instantly and felt myself mesmerized till intermission. It was only than did I have a chance to look around. We were trying to get outside and to do that you have to walk down this gorgeous flight of stairs. I felt like Scarlett, all I was missing was a giant ball gown. There were two flights, one on opposite ends and over each were to magnificent chandeliers. In the middle on the ground was a pillar and on top sat this amazing arrangement of lilies, roses, tulips and other gorgeous flowers. It was breathtaking. Went outside for a min or two and had a nice lady snap a picture of both of us, than it was back for the end of Les Mis. Both of us enjoyed the show much and I was sad that it had come to an end. The show is absolutely amazing and if you have yet to see it, I urge you too. When we finally shuffled our way out we got one more chance to have our picture taken in front of the gorgeous auditorium.
After that we went on mindless search for wine and champagne, which led to us realizing we had no corkscrew, which was ok cause we had the champagne. After that?....well...the rest of the night is between him and I. *grins*

The rest of the weekend was spent meeting two of his good friends and him showing me some special spots that mean a lot to him. Since I've written way too much already..I can if you want expound on this later. Hopefully this will quench your thirst on what happened with my wonderful valentines day with my wonderful valentine.

It was the best Valentines Day ever and I wouldn't have wanted to share it with anyone else. Thank you sweetie.

2004-02-20T13:45:00.000-05:00

BLAH!!!!

2004-02-17T00:05:00.000-05:00

this is such a great song:

Oh why cant I be what you need
a new improved version of me
but i'm nothing so good
no i'm nothing
just bones, a lonely ghost burning down songs
of violence of love and of sorrow
i beg for just one more tomorrow
where you hold me down fold me in
deep deep deep in the heart of your sins

I break in two over you
I break in two
And each piece of me dies
And only you can give the breath of life
But you dont see me, you dont...

here i'm in between darkness and light
bleached and blinded by these nights
where im tossing and tortured til dawn
by you, visions of you then youre gone
the shock lifts the red from my face
when i hear someone's taking my place
how could love be so thoughtless, so cruel
when all, all that i did was for you

i break in two over you
i break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life
but you dont see me you dont..

i break in two over you
i break in two
and each piece of me dies
and only you can give the breath of life
but you dont see me you don't...

i break in two over you
i break in two over you, over you
i break in two
i would break in two for you
now you see me
now you don't
now you need me
now you don't

~from autumn to ashes, autumn's monologue

i'll post about my wonderful and amazing weekend later when i can sit in front of my computer for more than 10 mins without my eyelids drooping!

2004-02-14T08:41:00.000-05:00

my weekend is here! yay!

Happy Valentines Day everyone!

2004-02-12T14:03:00.000-05:00

CONGRATULATIONS!!

to amanda and lucas!

hope you and the new baby girl are doing well.

2004-02-12T09:29:00.000-05:00

i get to be a flower delivery person today! isnt that cool?? ive always wanted to do it because everyone loves getting flowers. im excited...this will keep my mind off things too. i'll let you know how it goes, of course thats if i dont get lost and never come back!

2004-02-11T12:31:00.000-05:00

i cant believe i forgot to post this:

Carly: MuahahahahahahHAHAHAH!!!
Me: EEK
Me: lol
Carly: i found you!
Carly: now succumb to me!!!!
Me: NEVER!!
Carly: it's too late, you're on my list! now you must chat
with me whenever i have the whim!
Carly: and i will force upon you excessive use of
exclamation points!!!!!!!
Me: no!! not the exclamation points!!
Me: NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO
Carly: heehee
Carly: a-hem. i mean "hey anna, what's up?"
Me: you hit the crack pipe again didnt you?
Me: i thought we were going to take a lil break..
Me: or at least wait till we coudl share...
Carly: sorry, couldn't find ya in time
Me: mmhmm likely excuse
Me: this is why we need pagers
Me: so you can page me and be like "yo! HOLLA..i got the
stuff"
Carly: old skool
Me: than i can page you back and be like
"YO...HOLLA....be right there"
Me: see...it all works out.
Carly: word
Me: we could be ghetto if we tried..
Carly: umm, have you met me??
Carly: *BIG nerd*
Me: lol
Me: we just need to get you some BLING
Carly: oh hell yeah
Me: like carly written out in diamonds over your
knuckles..
Carly: that would be AWESOME!!!!

hahaha i work with crazy people but you GOTTA love them! everytime i read this i giggle...

2004-02-11T10:38:00.000-05:00

stupid aim. because of it i got a virus on my computer AND i sent it out to a bunch of people. so..if you recieved some kind of link from me yesterday i suggest running a virus scan and checking it out. and again im SORRY..i had no idea what it was and it was sent to me. that will teach me from hitting a link before asking. oh well...

its almost this weekend! YAY. im getting more excited as the weekend nears. tomorrow i get to go pick up my dress for the show, i cant wait. it was such a pretty dress! tara is coming with and we're going to find a place and have some hot cocoa and talk. it should be fun! than on friday i get to LEAVE! wheeee!

hmm other than that...nothing much has been going on. i'll have lots to post when i get back but not sure about what to post now. hmm...

i got my webcam working last night...i didnt realize how shy that lil thing makes me. kinda weird...i feel completely insecure in front of it. some person kept trying to get on the site and watch..very odd...though mostly creepy if you think of it. he doesnt know me but he kept trying for hours to try to get on and just watch me. *shudders* i'll have to work on making it a private site. la la...im sitting here watching my virus scan do a second check to make sure the virus it detected before got cleaned off. its not very exciting....i guess i could go do something productive like clean up the trail of clothes i somehow have across my apt...or..make myself something to eat. which..would be the harder of the two cause i really have NOTHING to eat. unless i want to revert back to...eggs AGAIN. maybe ill make some pasta salad for lunch today. *sighs* im sick of pasta too..but till i get back i cant waste any money on things like food..hehe. oh well..ill figure it out!

ok..enough rambeling...y'all will think im mental....which im sure y'all already do. *g*

2004-02-10T08:49:00.000-05:00

stolen from tara's journal:

EXOTIC FOREIGNER ALIAS
Favorite Spice + Last Foreign Vacation Spot
~Cinnamon Bali

SOCIALITE ALIAS
Silliest Childhood Nickname + Town Where You First Partied
~Banana Georgetown

FLY GIRL ALIAS
First Initial + First Two or Three Letters of Your Last Name
~A-Ros

ROCK STAR ALIAS
Any Liquid on the Bar + Last Name of Bad-Ass Celeb
~Tequila Love

DIVA ALIAS
Something Sweet Within Sight + Any Liquid in Kitchen
~Chocolate Cascade

GIRL DETECTIVE ALIAS
Favorite Baby Animal + Where You Last Went To School
~Wolf Tech

BARFLY ALIAS
Last Snack Food You Ate + Your Favorite Drink
~Pop tart Milk

SOAP OPERA ALIAS
Middle Name + Street Where You First Lived
~Fortunata Glade

PORN STAR ALIAS
First Pet's Name + Street You Grew Up On
~Spaceboy Hickory Cluster

2004-02-08T22:07:00.000-05:00

*waves*

i just realized quite a few people read this thing so i thougth id say hello. i promise ill try to keep up more!!!

*waves again*

thx for reading!!!

2004-02-07T11:36:00.000-05:00

if you can hear the people upstairs having sex, i wonder what they can hear??

hmmm....

2004-02-07T11:09:00.000-05:00

*hums* im excited! its almost the 14th and my wonderful boyfriend and i are going to go see Les Miserables. I cant wait!! he is really excited about seeing this, its his favorite show. He has already seen it twice i believe and this will be my frist time. Ive been told to bring tissues, hehe..my friends know me so well. it will be a great weekend, i cant wait!!! It will be nice to get away from here too, sometimes you just need a break and i think im at that point. Im looking forward to spending time with him and sharing this, i have to think of the good things right now because if i think too far in advance it makes me sad and upset. I'll cross that bridge when i get to it. *sighs*

other news...i got a nice raise at work. yay. my yearly eval went well so thats always a plus. i might be going to daytona too for a weekend, but im not 100% sure. Gotta figure all the dates and what not before i can officially say im going. I gotta remember im not just an associate at work but the GM..hehe i cant be taking off at every lil whim i get. Going to see my family soon, maybe just for a day or two but i miss them and we're up for some celebrating. dad had a business transaction go through very well and we're going to take him and momsies out for dinner. hmm...i think this might be all thats going on in my crazy and exciting life. if i think of more ill be sure to post....

now i must get going to work...ugh..how i hate that phrase. blech!!!

2004-02-04T12:18:00.000-05:00

was cleaning my apt, you know doing the norm: vaccuming, dusting, dishes, picking up clothes..i know i know it sounds so fun and exciting but eh it has to be done sometime. well, through all this i was thinking a lot and i realized how wonderfuly lucky i am to have the people i do in my life. i have this amazing boyfriend who surprises me everyday with who he is and who he is becoming, and i have incredible friends that stand behind me no matter what i do, or what happens. yes, a lot of them are far away and i hate that but...because they're such good friends sometimes it feels like they're right here with me. i also have a terrific family that i grow closer to each day despite the distance and the time i had to take away from them to grow. i am surrounded by wonderful and amazing people each day of my life and im so thankful for them and for them making me a truly better person.

i am truly a very very lucky and blessed woman.

i guess doing chores is good for you....especially when you get to have thoughts like that. *g* damn, mom was right.

2004-02-02T13:49:00.000-05:00

stole this from tara:

I'm The Window Shopper

guess we're both the same thing tara. im not too surprised. *s*

2004-01-31T02:07:00.000-05:00

"it's not like that"

you think that phrase could be any more painful?

*sighs*

2004-01-26T23:35:00.000-05:00

swiped from tara, once again:

A - Act your age? if my age is 3..yes. only when im at work do i tend to act my nice ripe age of *coughs*21*coughs*
B - Born on what day of the week? Friday
C - Chore you hate? ironing
D - Dad's name? Thomas
E - Essential makeup item? eye liner
F - Favorite actor? Nicholas Cage/Al Pacino
G - Gold or silver? Silver
H - Hometown? Reston, VA
I - Instruments you play? Piano
J - Job title? Student and General Manager
K - Kids? not that i know of...
L - Living arrangements? 2 bedroom apt by myself
M - Mom's name? Bernardina
N - Number of people you've slept with? thats none of YOUR business...
O - Overnight hospital stays? none
P - Phobia? ending up alone....
Q - Quote you like? "No man can know which drop his last breath did stop"
R - Religious affiliation? heh...you wouldnt understand if i tried....
S - Siblings? 3 brothers. Rico (26), Renato(25), Sandro (18)
T - Time you wake up? depends...if i open..7am. if i dont...normally 10.
U - Unique habit? when im alone i talk to myself (im not sure i should share that)
V - Vegetable you refuse to eat? lima beans
W - Worst habit? i worry too much.
X - X-rays you've had? 2, hand and knee
Y - Yummy food you make? mm all the food i make is yummy!
Z - Zodiac Sign? Gemini

2004-01-26T16:45:00.000-05:00

hmm i wonder how many people would agree with this: *g*

2004-01-24T17:15:00.000-05:00

stolen from tara, can you answer these:

01. Give me a nickname and explain why you picked it.
02. Am I lovable?
03. How long have you known me?
04. When and where did we first meet?
05. What was your first impression?
06. Do you still think that way about me now?
07. Have you ever dated me?
08. Have you ever WANTED to date me?
09. Have we kissed?
10. Do you want to kiss me?
11. If we could spend one day doing anything of your choosing, what would it be, and why?
12. What do you think my weakness is?
13. Do you think I'll ever get married?
14. What makes me happy?
15. What makes me sad?
16. What reminds you of me?
17. What is my best quality?
18. How well do you think you know me?
19. When's the last time you saw me?
20. Ever wanted to tell me something but couldn't?
21. Do you think that I could kill someone?
22. Who would play me in a movie?
23. If I were to be a color, what one would I be?
24. Describe me in one word:
25. Do you think our friendship/relationship is getting stronger/weaker/or staying the same?
26. Do you think that I am stubborn?
27. Are you going to put this on your livejournal and see what I say about you?

2004-01-22T14:28:00.000-05:00

its the year of the monkey....

or should i say MUNKEY!!!!??!!

buhahaha..im going to take that as a sign. *struts around*

its my year suckas!!!!!! what are you going to do about it?!!!

muhahahahahaha *runs off*

2004-01-18T11:51:00.000-05:00

RAR im frustrated!!!!!!

*throws something across room and slams door*

2004-01-10T15:04:00.000-05:00

sorry for being incognito for awhile. been busy caught up in everything. i know some of you are worried about me and it means a lot to know all of you care. im ok. im happy. im living for right now and i'll cross the rest when i get to it.

ive been sick the last week or so. and for all of you who know me so well you know how MUCH i hate being sick. i had to suck it up and go to the doctor too because the simple act of swallowing got really hard. you gotta love going to the doctors and waiting 45 mins for them to look at you for five seconds, say something really stupid like "yeah, your throat is looking pretty sad" and than send you off with a prescription for anitbiotics. i swear doctors have it made...not staying pre-med was the worst decision i probably ever made. ah well. hopefully my meds will kick in soon and my throat will feel fine again. i get cranky when im sick and i hate being cranky. rar.

it snowed yesterday...it was gorgeous. woke up in the middle of the night to see it just fall. it was breathtaking. so quiet..so peaceful. snow falling at night is probably one of the prettiest things to see. i felt so happy staring out the window that night...knowing i wasnt alone...that i could just turn around and he was there. i felt silly waking him up to see the snow but i did, i knew he'd like to see it. i wanted to just run around in it. such simple contentment. i know it makes me seem so niave at times....but breaking things down to the simple makes things easier to look at it. i may not know a lot of things but i know how to feel. i know how to understand...how to empathize. i see things in people...

i see so much in you.

2004-01-02T01:07:00.000-05:00

happy new years.

hope everyone had as magical of a night as i did.

2003-12-29T11:46:00.000-05:00

If you scatter thorns, don't go barefoot.

2003-12-23T00:25:00.000-05:00

i wish people would stop hurting me. i honestly cant take much more.

2003-12-19T09:27:00.000-05:00

katie, jacob and meg will be here today!!! yay!! everything seems right when they're back here. i cant wait! i hate the fact they will only be here for the day but id rather see them for a day than none at all.

*jumps up and down*

2003-12-16T00:10:00.000-05:00

HAPPY BDAY MATTHEW!!!!

trena: give him a big hug and kiss for me!!!

2003-12-15T00:11:00.000-05:00

yay i got my xmas tree up. it looks really pretty too, i had fun putting it up with jason. than we just sat on the couch together for awhile and talked. it was nice. if i had a pic id show you but i dont have digi...maybe i can track one down! stay tuned!

2003-12-11T00:13:00.000-05:00

Strength is the capacity to break a chocolate bar into four pieces with your bare hands--and then just eat one of the pieces.

this quote proves how i have NO strength whatsoever.....

2003-12-08T20:39:00.000-05:00

so what a lousy time lately. seems like every time i get my hopes up about something it goes wrong. so i guess im just not going to bother anymore. i only come out feeling really stupid about it. i got all dressed up today..straightened my hair and im here alone...eating pizza and writing. seems like the only thing i do well lately is write poems, or so my friends say.

work has been hectic..was suppose to have this huge visit tomorrow night so i went in today on my day off only to find out its getting pushed back to thursday...my OTHER day off. so now i have to flip my entire schedule around to fit everything in. it was just a horrible day and with my plans being cancelled it just added to it. *sighs*

the only good thing to come of it was this:

such a cutie, how could i not smile after seeing a wonderful picture of matthew like that!! thats trena's lil one, isnt he great??

and this:

this is trena's middle child. zack! isnt he adorable?? trying to pimp out and wink at me. how could i not smile seeing the faces of these lil angels!??

thank you trena, give zack and matthew a huge hug and kiss for me!!

2003-12-05T21:24:00.000-05:00

forget the tree. *sighs sadly*

2003-12-04T17:46:00.000-05:00

its been snowing since this morning and its so gorgeous out. white as far as you can see, its awesome. its a shame that jason and i are putting the xmas tree up tomorrow cause today would have been perfect for it. ah well...im just looking forward to sharing that with him and having some fun so any day is fine with me. i have a surprise for him too!!

i am very glad it decided to snow on my day off, that way i could enjoy it and didnt have to worry so much about work. tomorrow will be a different story....i have to be at work by 7 since we start opening an hour early. that will be fun!

maybe i can find someone to play in the snow with!!! any volunteers?!!

*throws a snowball and runs*

2003-12-02T01:14:00.000-05:00

if i end up deleteing this whole blog im going to hurt someone.