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Tuesday, December 18, 2001 things have been so crazy lately. i've been working so much it feels like thats all i do anymore, and it sux. i mean, i love the people i work with and i love spending time with them and would hate losing any of their friendships but i just need time to myself. i feel like its been forever since i've seen my family or even some of my friends and i miss them so much. i dont know how to explain it that well. I just feel so excluded from so many things and i know thats my own fault, just dont know how to fix it. this whole management thing, waiting for the official ok from the district manager is driving me nuts. Im working so much and doing it double time to prove myself and im just worried its going to be in vain. its cost me to lose some connections that have mattered a lot to me and i guess its just finally catching up. bleh i just want some time to stop, breathe and be able to pick up a book and get lost for hours, or write a poem, or even take a nice long bubble bath. i want to be able to go and see my friends and hang out with them till late and not have to worry that i gotta get up the next morning for work. *sighs* i just feel lost...and lonely. i dont know how else to explain it. for someone who used to be so good with words i seem to be coming up short lately. bleh lilwolf 12:41 AM 
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