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Sunday, February 25, 2001 so yesterday started off really bad. I had a migraine all day, stephy was in pain, and I was really upset all day. I spent most of the day till around 9:30 in my room with all the lights off and just sitting there thinking. Which got me no where because if i started thinking i'd end up crying. UGH......long story...lets just say i'll be in this state for a few days. I felt bad for justin cause he came over when i was in the middle of breaking down......i felt terrible......but blah, oh well. It was nice that justin came over, we talked and it felt a lil better to let some of it out. Steph and I had decided to go downtown to Sharkeys.....I was ready to get drunk. I need a few nice drinks to take the edge off my mood and just let me forget for a couple of hours. BOY did that work! I had about 4 tom collins and two lemon drop shooters and I was extremely buzzed and enjoying myself. It didnt make me forget.....cause I cant......but it distracted me and I really needed that. It seems I was a great sourch of entertainment to Stephy and Justin too.......ask them about it, im sure they'll have tons of lil stories to tell. We shot pool (which i sucked at cause i was too distracted) and hung out with friends. I saw the pool hustler again and struck up a conversation with him, he was really nice. Told me he remembered me cause he never forgot a face and asked me to play with him.....wow....it was pretty cool........even though we didn't get to play im glad i know him now. He's going to be back next friday and I hope I can get in a rematch with him! After Sharkeys we headed over to chiefs for a bit......pretty cool........we just railed on okie more......the hilarious thing was he was all upset at me for being tipsy.....haha. What a hypocrite!! We got back home around 3am......and ate some bread....after making sure I wasn't going to be sick i crashed. It was restless sleep.....with dreams that I dont want to share........but..........it was sleep, better than the night before. Which leads to today. Where steph and I did nothing but watch movies all day and night. We went out and got Batman, Batman Returns, What Lies Beneath, Blair Witch 2; Book of Shadows and Stigmata. It was really fun......we scared ourselves silly though....and I doubt i'll get any sleep tonight cause im still freaked out. With every noise I hear I jump.......blah.......i hate being scared but continue watching scary movies. Im a retard!! I needed the day off though......and it got my mind off things for awhile.....it was still there but I didn't have enough time to think of it. Steph is doing her best to see that. I have to thank her and Justin.......they've helped out these last 2 days and made it possible for me to smile. Thank you guys for helping me and trying your best to cheer me up. Its frustrating to me, cause this whole weekend i've been trying to not think of him......but everything i've done this weekend is because of him. RAR!! There is so much I want to say and cant get the words out.....so im going to write a letter....maybe then i can get some of this off my chest. *beats head on desk* im stupid!! rr to get off that for now.........here are some quotes from Batman Returns......which is the best movie! two words CATWOMAN RULES!! I want to be her!! Catwoman: I don't know about you, Miss Kitty, but I feel so much... yummier. Catwoman: Life's a bitch; now so am I. Selina Kyle: It's the so-called "normal" guys that always let you down. Sickos never scare me. At least they're committed Batman: Mistletoe can be deadly if you eat it. Catwoman: A kiss can be even deadlier if you mean it ---so true so true lilwolf 3:16 AM 
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